After a long while...

it's been ages since i had the time and energy to start writing on this blog. There were too many things that happened that it's impossible to remember the nitty gritty of it all, much less to write it out in full details. I dont think the details are pleasant anyws...

So we've come to the stage where we are seriously considering our career options for our future. it is both exciting and worrying because i'm excited about planning for our future, but also worried about how my lack of resilience will lead to problems for our future. Seeing how i'm already put on medication by my psychiatrist and given advice by the counselor to stay away from my work for a period of time, my options are even clearer now -- to end my bond prematurely OR to continue till the end of the bond, but still quit eventually. of course there is a possibility that my health is good enough to withstand 1.5 yrs more to the end of the bond, but the opportunity cost is that i will be losing a stable source of decent income, and giving up the prospects that MOE will be giving me. You said you didnt mind if i settle down for a simple and low-paying job, or not settle down for any job at all, but i know how hard you'll push yourself if you're our sole breadwinner. in case you dont know how skinny you already are, i think you might become skeleton if you push yourself to hold 2 jobs. Myself and our future fat cat wont be too pleased. -.-"

However, i'm also strangely thankful to God for putting me through this so it'll open my eyes to see clearly the people who care about me. My friends from work, my mom, and you. You never thought about giving up on me even though i'm a huge ball of trouble that affect you with my anxiety and panic attacks...you were always there for me when i need you. i know i've said this before, but i'll say it again: there is no better bf than you out there.

I like how you make me fall in love with you EVERY DAY. your dedication to your family, your drive to provide a better future for us, your love for my family members,  your reassuring nature every time i get into a fluster, your logical frame of mind when dealing with problems, your sense of humor, and your gentleness, never fail to attract me to you more and more each day. I never understood how people could love one another more and more each day becuz there must be a cap/limit somewhere. but i do now becuz genuine love is amazing. and you are also amazing.

At Chili's (SG) for the first time -- Texas Cheese Fries

your "sian" look...

showing off your sparkling white teeth

your way of protesting at my non-stop photo-taking hahaha!

your revenge at me for taking way too many photos :-(

I hope we will be able to document our journey together in even more photos!! that way, we'll be able to show our future fat cat how much his/her mama and papa had to go through to have him/her. Also to show our future fat cat ugly pictures of you ^^V