Down with Dengue

It's already been more than 7 months with you by the time i got re-adjusted back to school (somewhat) and started counting down to the June vacation. Just when we were making plans for the long weekend (thanks to Vesak day!) you were seriously down with dengue fever on the 22nd May night. I already suspected that it could be a dengue case especially since you complained of chills and painful body aches, but didnt want to give in to my worst-case scenario imagination. I've always felt that all those talk about taking precautions against dengue would never affect me cuz i'll never be those "lucky" ones...

Watching you grow thinner and weaker because of dengue really pains my heart a lot...i will gladly take your place and suffer on your behalf if it means less pain for you. Worrying about you is just as painful anyway :-( Have been praying for you all this while and i really hope you get well soon.

I'm sorry that i got mad at you at a time like this for something that slipped your mind. I got panicky and worried sick after you told me briefly thru Whatsapp that you had complications and that you will update me later when i get to the hospital. i called you back at least 6 times but you never picked up a single call. So i could only feel worse and think of the worst that could possibly happen. i couldnt rush to the hospital at 10am either because they are so sticky about rules so i was really on the verge of collapsing. And when i finally got to the hospital you didnt seem to think that was such a big issue so i really felt that you didnt care if i was so worried sick about you. the fact that i was already worried sick about you since day 1 made me feel even more terrible. I'd already gave everything i could to show my concern for you so i really wasnt expecting to be treated like that. i know i should be extra understanding now that you're a patient, but i couldnt control my emotions because i care too much about you.

I think my mind is in such a mess i dont even have a focus for writing this post. just here to update this blog so it doesnt look dead i guess haha